Hey y’all. So today was my neurologist appointment. It didn’t start till 10, but we had to be there at 9:45 so I didn’t go to school until after. We were at the appointment for a couple hours and we met my dad for lunch by where he works so I only went to school for an hour today.
At the appointment they did a bunch of reflex tests and kept poking me with a toothpick to see if I could feel the pinprick. As some of you know, I don’t have feeling in my hands except for one part, right where my fingers meet my palm.
The nurse had me do one test to test this, where I had to close my eyes and touch my nose. But I couldn’t do it because I can’t feel my nose until there is something actually touching it. And my nose can’t tell the difference between my fingers and the rest of my palm. She did more tests like this, and I started to get a little freaked out. And started crying. It was kind of stupid, but I get it I guess.
In the end, they decided to make an MRI appointment (Magnetic Resonance Imaging) and said that they’re new hypothesis is that there is something wrong with the cervical and thoracic parts of my spine. Basically there is a space between the neck vertebrae and the spine, and I might have smashed them together so there isn’t a space anymore.
The only way to fix it is super intense spine surgery.
I, I- I just wanted answers. Not more options of what’s wrong with me. I’m sick of hearing, “Well it could be this”. And spinal problems is a whole new can of worms that hasn’t ever been opened before.
I don’t even know anymore. I’m stressed because I’m missing so much school, I just want a break that I don’t have to spend in pain or at a funeral.
I’m just done.
I feel sorry you have to go through this. I went through similar problems, going to doctor after doctor with what might be the problem and can’t get diagnosed until it’s too late. There is nothing worse than when the doctors have no idea what they’re dealing with.
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Prayers and Hugs. Hope you get some real answers soon.
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I can definitely agree with that. You feel like the experts should know what to do, and they’re the ones asking questions.
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Thank you
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I know, right? I mean shouldn’t the doctor know everything?
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Haha yes, and most of the time they know what they’re talking about, but I can see how it’d be hard to know for sure.
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Ha ha, yes, I can see that.
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I just hope they can figure it out soon.
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I hope so too but in the mean time, keep hanging in there. 🙂
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Good luck. I can only imagine how frustrating this whole process must be for you. I hope everything gets better soon.
-Dani ❤ 🙂 ❤ 🙂
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Thanks, me too.
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Best wishes to you. I can’t say I know how this feels but I do hope things will be alright. z
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Takk måne 🙂
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ooh what does that mean?
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I feel so so sorry for you Aspen! This truly sucks! I wish I could hep you 😦
But I will pray for you if it helps and and I send loads and loads of hugs to you! Xxx
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Thanks Moon, in Norwegian
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Thank you Dz
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oh I get it!
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It’s alright 🙂
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Try to stay strong girl! I wish I could help but I know you will get through it xx sending my love your way
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Thank you 🙂
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Aspen, I know it’s hard but there will be answers in the end. You are super strong already, so you don’t need me telling you to be more strong. But–stay hopeful. Hope gets me through the toughest days, I hope it can do the same for you. As always, I am praying, and on stand by for support. ❤ 🙂
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Thank you so much Liv. Hey, will you email me?
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OF COURSE!
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I am so sorry you have to go through this! Something I telk myself to make me feel better is that hard times mean that good times are waiting for you. Remember that 🙂
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Haha I don’t know if I believe that, but thanks 🙂
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I wish it’s enough to WANT to believe thaf 🙂
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Crying is not stupid. It is very hard to stay positive when there seems to be no real answers. I could not imagine going through your physical issues at your age; I have a hard time and I am an adult. The only thing to say is stay strong, and keep reaching out.
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